Tuesday, February 21, 2012


I go to bed each night
Thinking thoughts of you
Wondering how your day was 
What clothes you wore
How you styled your hair
What cologne you chose to wear

Hoping, that I, too,  crossed your mind 
If not once, maybe twice

I close my eyes and breathe deep breaths of you
Intoxicated by just the thought of holding you 
touching you 
knowing you

I wake each morning 
And say a prayer for you 
Hoping you know how much I love you
Knowing that one day I'll be able to hold you 

Although we have yet to meet 
When that day arrives I'll rest assured that love was meant between you and I

With no doubt in my mind 
Because our love will be designed 
One of a Kind  

Until that day comes
I'll simply continue to dream, pray, and wait for you......
My one,
My only, 
My Everything

Future Hubby Thoughts....

                                       Yo Te Amo,


Monday, February 20, 2012


To feel 'fit as a fiddle', you must tone down your middle.


So I did it. 45 minutes on the treadmill…. and….. wait for it……….About 10 minutes of jogging. I know it says 42 minutes but I accidentally pushed 40 minutes when I began and I didn't want to start over so I just did an additional three minutes when that was over. 

I tried doing intervals so I wouldn't get so tired and ended up doing more than I had initially set out to do. So yay I did it! I'll admit that during the first 20 minutes I became bored and discouraged. But instead of giving up, I turned up the volume on my Pandora reggaeton station (don't judge me) and kept it moving.  

That pool is what I got to look at while I was on the treadmill.  I must admit it was true motivation. Suddenly, it dawned on me that summer is fast approaching and your girl right here wants to actually be able to go to the pool. I don’t know about most of you but I have always avoided pools because of my weight.  But things must change this summer.

I admit that as I looked out into that pool I envisioned myself out there parlaying and soaking up the sun (with proper SPF of course). Visions of grandeur I know…but I’ve decided it’s what I want for myself this summer. So tomorrow I will be off to the gym to do it all over again after work of course because tomorrow is my first day…YAY!!

SURGE OF THE DAY: I'll be getting it in at the gym tomorrow so that I’m able to make healthy look good on me!

 I've got to keep reminding myself of this.

                                                                                                Dreaming a little Dream,


Once and For All

I got a job ya’ll!! Two weeks and God did it! It’s not a permanent gig but it’s a door that God has opened and I’m walking through until the next window of opportunity springs forth. And I am assured it will.

Sooooo…….(drum roll please) Alright…Alright…Alright….I must say it….I’m tired of complaining about my body and all the things that I find wrong with it. Since I’ve got a problem with my body (a big one btw; that girl in the mirror…Yup she’s my biggest nemesis). But since I have a problem, there’s nothing I can do but resolve it. Right? I mean come on I created the monster and now its time to bring her down to size (ha ha ha…well I thought it was funny ….#sigh…lol)

HOWEVER, I am not about to begin writing a list of Do’s and Don’ts because I have consistently ended up with a super long list of  “should’ve”, “could’ve”,” would’ve’s.” And I so conveniently end up with a list of things I WANTED to do.  So I’ll deem them affirmations or Surges if you will.  I will note them as soon as they pop into my mind. I already have one for tomorrow…ooh yes I do! Can you guess it???

SURGE OF THE DAY: I will do at least 45 minutes on the treadmill tomorrow and run for at least 3 minutes (maybe not consecutively…and I know it doesn’t seem like a lot but with the junk in my trunk three minutes is a great feat) Wish me well ya’ll.  

On a side note, this photo is probably one of the rare “kinda” “sorta” body shots that I’ve taken of myself or allowed others to take of me. But I needed something to get me motivated and this is definitely a starting point.                                                                            

                                                                                                                                       Kiss…Kiss Ya’ll,

PS: Dear Sexiness-I’m on my way #getting_It_In

Friday, February 10, 2012

Monif C. Yippie!

Be still my heart. Monif C. has just revealed the Spring 2012 Collection and I must admit I’m in lust! My eyes are drawn to the rich, bright, colors that pop and the beautiful styles. These dresses are sure to flatter any curvy diva’s figure. I narrowed it down to four of my faves and feel that I could definitely rock these dresses to the fullest come Spring. Although cloudy days are currently in the sky I’m beckoning Mr. Sun so that I can rock one of these fierce dresses! #LovingIt

                                                                                                                             Dreaming of Working It,
                                                                                                                                          Madame Surge 

Blue Ivy Carter: Isn’t She Lovely!

Beyonce revealed her and Jay-Z's precious doll for the entire world to see. Blue Ivy certainly bears resemblance to the Knowles family and reminds me of Juelz, Beyonce’s nephew.  I can admire the Carters for providing a peak into their child’s life as opposed to allowing a magazine to do it for them. I commend them for refusing to monetize their child’s life. Congrats again to the Carters and welcome to the world Blue Ivy!  

To see the rest of the pics go to http://helloblueivycarter.tumblr.com/

                                                                                                                               Madame Surge

Saturday, February 4, 2012

If They Knew Where I was Going, They’d Never Let Me Go…

Success is to be measured not so much by the position that one has reached in life as by the obstacles which he has overcome.

~Booker T. Washington~

Never did I imagine that by making this my e-mail signature line over 5 years ago this quote would have such a presence in my life. Little did I know but this would be the motto of much of my life. As the situations of my life  began to unfold I found myself replaying this quote in my mind time and time again.

Greatness. It crosses my mind every day. It’s what I aspire toward. It’s what I strive for. It’s what I yearn to leave behind as a legacy. As I mentioned earlier, I had my exit interview from my previous job today. 

Initially, I didn’t want to go. I didn’t want to hear what they had to say. In my mind, what had been done was exactly that…Done. I was ready to move on and forget that I’d ever even walked into that building. But 
I knew I couldn’t give them the benefit of feeling as though they defeated me. I’d spent several months taking their side bar comments and dealing with constant ridicule and I couldn't allow them to feel as though they succeeded.

You see, to most people who don't know me characterize me as that quiet person in the bunch (however those who know me beg to differ) but to those peeps at my job I was the “quiet one.” And in my profession, unfortunately, quiet often equates to unintelligent.  Yeah. That’s what they think. However, I’ve seen quite a few people talk a lot and say absolutely nothing. And in the alternative I’ve seen individuals evoke powerful thoughts with just a few short words.

But I digress. So I went to the exit interview and told them exactly how I felt and exactly what I had experienced during my time at the workplace.  And apparently I wasn’t the first to be concerned with what was going on. I was informed that some changes were about to be made and I can honestly say I couldn’t be any happier. It’s not a revenge thing its moreso a do what’s right type of mentality. 

I find it unfortunate that we are in 2012 and ignorance still runs rampant in workplaces. I’m glad I had the opportunity to state my peace today and now I can move on to bigger and greater things. I’ve worked too hard and overcome far too many obstacles not to seek out greatness.

I clothe myself with greatness each day and exude confidence despite my current circumstance. I know that my time at that job was only for a season.  And I have learned in my lifetime that greatness can’t be attained if you’re not willing to work hard and move forward in spite of adversity. #On_To_The_Next

                                                                                                                Onward and Upward,

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Tales of The Unemployed- What's A Girl To Do?

This realization that I have lost my job is slowly starting to sink in. I feel like one of those divorced NBA Housewives that actually had a pre-nup. I know, I know… #dramatic_much.  But I do feel like I was accustomed to a certain status of living and suddenly I’m back in the poor house. Ok, I’ll cease with the melodrama.

I know this situation is only temporary and I will continue my pursuit towards greatness. And I know God did this for a reason, and although I may not understand it, I know he will bring me through it. Yup, that’s called Faith. Believe it or not I actually have a lot of it; it just gets hidden by my pessimism at times.

Although the majority of my day is filled with job searching, I know I must find other things to do. I’ve decided that I really want to do all those things I wasn’t able to do while I was employed and unhappy.  Like read what I want to read. Learn something new. Blog. Clip Coupons. Cook. Exercise. Work on my vision. Or better yet discover my vision.

I figure I better do what I need to right now because the next endeavor I take on in life will be my career; it will be what drives me. I’ve been praying and asking God to show me what my calling is. It’s a shame but I’ve spent 20 odd years of my life obtaining several degrees, amassing tons of debt, and just “being” yet I still don’t know what that girl is in the mirror is supposed to be doing. #No_Bueno at all.

It’s Day 2 of Tales of the Unemployed and I’m still job-less but I’m far from hopeless. I view this as a period of time that will provide an opportunity for personal growth and maturity. I’m a firm believer that although I’m currently in a mess, in the end I’ll be given a message.

                                                                                                                    Faithfully Yours, 
                                                                                                                                   Madame Surge