Looking Back….#No Can Do

As I contemplate and read  entries pertaining to last New Year’s Eve and NYE’s of yonder years I’ve come to realize that I’ve had three central themes:  Love (Lack Therof), Me (Woe Is Me), and My Weight (Hips, Thighs & Everything Not So Nice). Since my NYE’s of the past consist of a constant centralized theme I realized that my resolutions are merely momentary thoughts that evidently escape my mind quickly.

As a result of these faded and jaded NYE’s of yesteryears I’ve resolved to make no resolutions this year. I will not eat any black eyed peas nor will I wear red or green underwear, whichever it is. I will simply do “me.” I will thank God for allowing me to see another year and rest assured that what is meant for me will be.

The beginning of a New Year is not some magic potion. It doesn’t change situations, places or relationships. It’s a blessing to be able to see another year because there are some who didn’t make it. And because it is a blessing I will treat each day that I’m given as such. I will not  set a goal that may be ridiculous and unattainable but I will live my life and try new things, meet new people and if I happen to attain some of the things I longed for during years prior then that makes it all the better. Here’s to 2012. I don’t know what to expect but I look forward to what comes my way. 

                                                                                                             See Ya’ll Next Year,

                                                                                                                         Madame Surge

Thinking A Thought.....

So I was just thinking today and recalling some of my 2011 activities and J. Scott came to mind. Jill Scott. Miss Jill. No matter what you call her she is simply lovely. There is nothing bad that I could ever say about Ms. Scott. She is truly a gem. And she rocks curvy so well. I was able to see her in concert this summer in Dallas and she’s definitely a true performer. In my opinion, she embodies all that is woman and represents the curvy divas so well. She's truly an icon and her music speaks to my soul. When you listen to Jill you know what’s been through, what she’s going through and what she’s going to do.  She exudes confidence to the highest level.

Stylewise -I find her intriguing. She never ceases to amaze me whether it be a bold print, a statement hat or alluring sunglasses. She's a curvy diva that personifies the definition of a lady. Her style is daring, bold, and at times breathtaking. The confidence that is apparent in her manner of dress is also evoked in her music. When you listen to Jill you know that she's experienced some things in her life but she's never lost her smile. Thanks Jill for representing curvy divas everywhere!

                                                                                                   
                                                                                                 XOXO,

                                                                                                      Madame Surge

Bidding Adieu

Dear 2011,

I’m not too sure how I feel about you. I don’t dislike you nor did I absolutely adore you. But I cannot say I’m sad to see you go. I can thank you because you brought one of my greatest dreams to fruition. Now that one of my dreams has been accomplished it’s time to move on and dream even bigger dreams.  As I look toward 2012, I can’t say I’m expecting great things but I am expecting to work on being a better me. 2011, you have taught me that there’s no way I can move forward if my eyes are focused on what’s behind me. So I must admit that in 2012, you’ll be out of sight, out of mind.

I feel as though I’ve settled a lot in 2011 and things certainly could have been much different. Whether it be relationships, friendships or anything in between I feel as though I didn’t reach for all that I had the potential of attaining. I won’t make resolutions this year but I will make affirmations. I will strive to do better and if I come up short I won’t beat myself up about it.

I won’t expect people or situations to change but if things aren’t working out I will certainly change the situation I’m in. I’m looking forward to 2012 not with great anticipation but with quiet confidence. I’m certain that a number of things will occur I just hope I make the best of them.

In 2012 I will write more, I will get out more and get to know this city I’m in. I will make new friends and meet new people. I will socialize (I likely won’t be a butterfly but hey the caterpillar’s got to start somewhere).  I won’t be limited by circumstance.

To 2011, it’s been real. Now it’s really time to move on. All that I ask is that in the final days we have together that you make them enjoyable and eventful so that things end on a bright note. Oh, and if you can’t do that, then do nothing. You’ve already done enough. I promise.

To 2012, I look forward to what you will bring and I am hoping to bring a lot to the table. I’m making no predictions but I’ve got full intentions to make this the best year yet. #Countdown_Begins

                                                                                                                Ciao 2011,

                                                                                                                                Madame Surge 

Fa La La La Gala.......

NEWS FLASH: Yes, I wear wigs and to be quite honest I LOVE LOVE LOVE them. In an instant, I can be transformed from sexy geek to sassy and chic.  I have no qualms about wearing them. Short or long all that matters is that you ROCK what you got. Most people tend to be self conscious when they wear wigs and I admit I was when I initially began wearing them years ago. But now I just work with it until it looks its best (I become ONE with the wig..he he he) .

But seriously I am absolutely in love with wigs, I started wearing them when I began transitioning to natural hair. My natural hair is long but I haven’t figured out what to do with it yet (Yup, three years later…Still No Clue…) so in the mean time I will continue to wear wigs until I become one with my natural hair.

The wig currently on my fave list is: Freetress Equal Wig- Gala. I ordered this wig on www.divatress.com because I was looking for a new look. For a while now I have been rocking a curly wig (photos  to come) but I liked Trina’s look and wanted to create a similar style.

Trina



I am currently in severe like with the Gala wig. I love the feel of it as well as the body and shine. It moves with ease. It’s a futura wig so it’s even better because it’s curling iron safe. I only paid 19.95 for it and the shipping was fast. This is the first time I've ordered from this company and I was pleasantly impressed.

Freetress Equal Full Wig-Gala

When I wore this wig it got loads of compliments and no one was able to tell it wasn’t my own . (Well it is mine, I paid for it!) Anywho on a 10 point scale, this wig gets a 9.5. It doesn’t tangle easily and the only thing I did not like about it is that it didn’t have clips/combs. I generally like to have added security with my wigs and I’ve learned that the combs prevent shifting and any movement but hair pins will suffice.

In my opinion, this isn’t the type of wig you wear on a daily basis. But if you want to feel like a diva or simply fabulous then this wig would be the best choice. It’s more of a night on the town type of wig. Definitely something you can put your freakum dress on with and impress your male suitors with.  I'll likely order another one of these in a different color just to keep it saucy!

                                                                                             Pleasantly Pleased,

                                                                                                            Madame Surge

Disclosure: I wasn't paid for this post. Nor did I receive a complimentary wig. These are simply my honest opinions.

Project 100: Losing 100 pounds while Keeping it 100 at All Times

I’m a plus size girl living in a slim girl’s world. Don’t get me wrong I absolutely adore my curves and see them as being quite sexy.  However, as of late my curves are taking an entirely new direction. Because of this I know my overall health is at stake.  Since I don’t desire to make this weight loss goal a New Year’s Resolution I’ve made the decision to start today and make some changes in my way of eating and my overall health.

About two years ago I lost 60 pounds and was quite impressed with myself.  I was feeling good and in looking fine. (#yup)  However, life and its disappointments (and possibly God’s way of humbling me) somehow got in the way and I found myself digging deep in the cookie jar yet again. As a result my weight has since skyrocketed and although I’m not where I was…I’m one candy bar short of being extremely overweight again. 

Because I promised myself that I would never get there again I have decided to take control of my health and work on my self-image.  I know what it’s like to be slender as well as overweight. Of these two lifestyles I believe being healthy is the best decision I can make for myself.  I’ve decided to chronicle this adventure and welcome any suggestions, tips and encouragement…. I’m not anticipating this to be a perfect journey (Seriously, who would) but I am determined to get my hustle on and reach my goal…so stay tuned for Project 100 updates…It’s certain to be a true journey…. #Let’s Go

                                                                                                                                XOXO,

                                                                                                                                       Madame Surge

Contemplation...

It’s the eve before Christmas and I’m sitting at Starbucks while the rest of the world is hustling and bustling trying to round up their final Christmas gifts. As I sit here and as I go through my daily life, I am assured of nothing more in this world other than the fact that God loves me tremendously. There is no question and no doubt in my mind.

As I sat contemplating the creation of this blog and debating whether it was the right decision for me (since I’ve started and gave up so many times) I was jolted out of my thought process by a fellow patron at Starbucks.  He walked up and simply stated, “Ma’m here’s some words,” handed me a paper napkin, and walked out of the coffee shop.   It wasn’t his phone number nor was it a lewd statement or an invitation to dinner. It simply stated, “Delight yourself in the ways of the lord (Jesus Christ) and he will give you desires of your heart.”

As I read these words, I immediately thought, “who knows my heart better than God” and who has provided for me even when I had nothing. God knows me better than anyone else and despite all my faults and shortcomings he has loved me nonetheless. So as we celebrate the day of his son Jesus’ birth and as we enter into this New Year I think it’s time to seek Him and ask for His direction and guidance. It took a small action from a stranger to cause me to genuinely contemplate this statement and seek a renewed direction for my life.

I haven’t honed in fully on what this blog will include but it’s certain to provide an insight into all that is me. (as random as that may be) However, for all who know me, they are aware that God has always come first. This New Year is guaranteed to bring a variety of things (good, bad and possibly disappointing) but I’m grateful I have a God I can lean and depend on throughout this year.

Although the world has tried to commercialize the real meaning of Christmas, I know who holds tomorrow and I know who has allowed me to live this day.  There is no amount of money nor is there any gift that can make up for all that God has done for me. I’m grateful for what he has brought me through and I’m thanking him in advance for the blessings he has for my future. Happy Birthday Jesus! Without you what would we do? Just wanna say, thank you.

                                                                                                                                Love Always,

                                                                                                                                       Madame Surge